Wednesday 9 December 2009
A very contentious rant about motherhood...
This is my writing workshop post and I really struggled, yet again, to think what to write. Some of my ideas would have been too deep for the limited time I have available so I was left with this one. Against my better judgement I have decided to go with it. After all, I did make a comment on a post of Josie's that I am always candid on here, afront or please, so here I go...
First of all I must apologise for what I am about to say. It is not my intention to insult anyone - it's not aimed specifically at you. I also feel that I must explain that I am a fully paid up grumpy old woman of the highest order (see last weeks rant here), and hope that this will help me to be excused for all the offence I am about to cause...
I have often felt that mummy blogging is not something I should do, is not a community I truly belong to. I am generally not sentimental or in touch with my emotions you see, and this includes my feelings on motherhood. Yes, I love my son, very much. But that's it. I did one post about it just in case anyone was thinking I was a completely cold hearted bitch here but now I've done it, it's 'as you were'.
I get mightily fed up with hearing other mothers droning on about how wonderful their little ones are, how blessed we are to have them, how despite everything...the sleep deprivation, the endless, monotonous days, the loss of self...they are so worth it. How cute they are, how clever they are, how cheeky they are, and on, and on, and on... And don't even get me started on the sanctimonious crowing about what fabulous mothers we all are. How we all spend hours playing with the little darlings, and baking, and crafting and generally being all round good earth mothers, oh and 'you should have seen their little faces'. Then starts all the reciprocating of perfect mummy stories, and mutual congratulations of jobs well done, and what prefect children we have. Round and round we go in our perfect fluffy little world of motherhood and domestic bliss.
Just because I happen to have a child doesn't mean I will cease to exist in any sense other than being a mother. My blog is for me, not him. I try to cast off my mother status at any time other than when I am actually having to do some hands on mothering, and blogging is generally not one of those times.
I think I will stick around as a mummy blogger. In the real world I would have to endure coffee mornings and play dates and not be able to escape. At least here, when it all gets too much I can just log off...and play with my son.
This post was written for Sleep is for the weak's Wednesday Writing Workshop, prompt number 5, 'Have a good rant. Go on! You know you want to...'
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I still love you and I am strong enough to know that your rant isnt aimed at the well balanced me................................................................................. or is it?
ReplyDeleteTMH - course not. It was genuinely not aimed at anyone in particular but more an expression of my frustration at not feeling part of the 'loving motherhood' gang...
ReplyDeleteHelen - you very kindly posted a comment which I accidently deleted. If you come back and read this please comment again as I'd love to know what you said !
I know how you feel (in a way), I felt really alienated on a baby centre birth board - not so much over the 'lovey dovey mummy' club but simply the cliqueyness, I was going to give up on t'internet altogether when I decided screw it I'll blog and I don't give a stuff if nobody likes me or reads my blog. It's a good way to vent some steam (and in my blog my kids are normally secreting one icky substance or another)!
ReplyDeleteI struggle with other mother's perfect image of motherhood. My relationship with Kai is no fairytale, something I have blogged about before. In fact, a lot of days I don't even like the boy - I certainly don't like myself or the mother I am sometimes and spend most of the time with not a clue what I'm supposed to be doing. I often feel resentful because I want to be doing my own thing, then guilty because I feel like that. No, no perfection here.
ReplyDeletePlease do stick around :) I hear enough stories of domestic bliss and prefer to read posts like yours ...
Josie x
Ha! no perfect mum or domestic goddess in my blog or house - anyway screw ups make for much better reading!!! Just found your blog and I like your style :0)
ReplyDeleteYup, I can understand where you are coming from, especially as I don't always feel like a paid up member of the motherhood club because I work full-time. I have never felt so criticised or like I am failing/doing it wrong since I became a mother, although not by the blogging community (at least not the ones I visit anyway!)
ReplyDeleteOn the other hand, I have also been known to post the odd cutesy mummy story (one about nursery ryhmes springs to mind...)
ha ha ha
ReplyDeleteI'm a mummy that happens to blog. But i wouldn't say it's about 'being a mummy' - it's about being me - maybe it's an age thing (I don't know how old you are but geriatric is a clue I guess LOL) I'mm an 'older' mum and I love my daughter, would walk hot coals for her, but I love ME too
Nice post.
oh! just read your 'about me' - I'm older than you! dear lord if your are geriatric I'm dead! LOL
ReplyDeleteI don't think you should ever worry about saying what you think - especially when it it written down. If people don't want to read it they can make that choice. We have to remember that no matter how often we blog, it is only a mere snapshot of our lives - highlights or lowlights - you can't use it to compare to your own life. You use it to share with others, sometimes to get tips and tricks, or just to feel you are not alone out there. Say what you want!
ReplyDeleteJosie - 'alot of days I don't even like the boy'..I roared with laughter...I thought it was only me. Thanks x
ReplyDeleteTattoo - You might be older than me but Star is only 13 months old...I'll be 44 before he even starts school. Poor lamb...
Kellogg - good to hear that screw ups make better reading - I'll have plenty of posting fodder then ;-)
WOAM - venting is exactly what I do here. And I'm glad it's not only my son with secretion issues ;-)
Generally thank you all for dropping by and commenting. I am 'feeling the love' and it's all the more welcome as I felt sure this post would be universally disapproved of and ignored. Thanks everso and big hugs x
Plate - I agree that the blogging community is a very broad church and nobody seems to get judged, thankfully ;-)
Dawn - thanks for your useful reminder that blog posts are just snapshots. Don't worry though, I do say exactly what I want !
Josie - 'alot of days I don't even like the boy'..I roared with laughter...I thought it was only me. Thanks x
ReplyDeleteTattoo - You might be older than me but Star is only 13 months old...I'll be 44 before he even starts school. Poor lamb...
Kellogg - good to hear that screw ups make better reading - I'll have plenty of posting fodder then ;-)
WOAM - venting is exactly what I do here. And I'm glad it's not only my son with secretion issues ;-)
Generally thank you all for dropping by and commenting. I am 'feeling the love' and it's all the more welcome as I felt sure this post would be universally disapproved of and ignored. Thanks everso and big hugs x
Plate - I agree that the blogging community is a very broad church and nobody seems to get judged, thankfully ;-)
Dawn - thanks for your useful reminder that blog posts are just snapshots. Don't worry though, I do say exactly what I want !